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I am sitting here starting this journal. I feel real crappy and feel as if I have been abandoned by the world and don't know
how to get myself back. There have been so many things that have happened in my life this year that I just can not make sense
of. It's Christmas and I wish it would be just over and done with, because thas is just all to painful and hard for me right
now. I lost my four year old son Cullen in June this year to a to pnuemonia,probably not the right spelling but that is beside
the piont. Ihad taken him to the doctor twice that wek and they never saw or did anything and he was only let out of hospital
two weeks earlier. I just want my boy back, and there is some days where I just want to give up. But I have three other
children to look after even though they don't make it easy for me most days. They fight like cats and dogs, never clean up
after themselves and never listen to anything I say. It doesn't help that I am a single parent, that I don't have many friends
and I long to share my life with a partner. I just want to be happy again.
10th December 2004
Well things don't feel so bleak today, though things really haven't changed. I just got a little more sleep last night than
I have the last few nights, still broke as can be and being this close to christmas doesn't make things any easier.
I know that my angels are looking over me all the time but I sometimes just don't recieve the messages all the time because
I am not allowing myself to be open to them. I am not always so down in the dumps, it's just that time of year and I don't
have much family around and I really miss my boy. You see I pulled the Christmas tree and decorations out the other day and
Culen's stocking and baubles were all there and the memories came flooding back to me. The memories are not bad but they
make me sad because we can not create any more wonderful memories now that he is on the other side.
Some days here I will right lots of things my thoughts, feelings, what is going on for me, how I feel about certain things
and pionts of view and then there wil be some things that wil be just dribble. But that is what journals are for to get all
those things out of your head so they don't wiegh you down and you can get things of your chest.
11th December 2004
I am so sick of life I just want to end it right here. I wasn't as good as I thought yesterday morning because I broke down
in tears about half an hour after getting there. I was like a blithering mess and I hide in the tiolets for just a little
and then I left the building cause I just wanted out of there.
Hey I had a mini breakdown and you know what I may just end up in the looney bin to spend christmas. Not matter what
these kids just don't listen and even after I tell them what needs to be done.
Its like talking to a brick wall if I survive this week end I'll be a better person at least I hope so.
Well things just seem to be getting worser by the minute the department was just out here and that can only mean bad
news. I might as well give up now because it doeswn't matter what I do it doesn't help and they don't listen and don't care
no matter what,so why even try.
I just feel as if everyone wants me to fail in the first place so why try when they do everything to make sure I fail
in the first place. Why can't this life just give me a fair go, what have I done that is so god damn awful, that I deserve
such a shit life. I try not to hurt anyone and spread love and peace, I don't wish harm on anyone and treat everyone with
respect.
I just want to be happy, I want peace and harmony in my life and I'd like for once and a while for the kids to act
respectfully of each other and myself, to listen to what they are told and not arguing constantly and not antagonise each
other. It's not like I expect it 100% of the time but just a little bit of the time would be nice.
I hate being this down in the dumps and down on life, I am usually quite optimistic about everything but it has been
a real hard week and everything has got on top of me and I want out from under it.
13th December 2004
Well I have started this week feeling 100% better. I realise that I just have to look at everything as an opportunity to
learn from and become stronger because and inspite of it.
I am no longer rely on anything outside so to speak, I have to make a positive effort in forming my life and world
about me. I need to relax and meditate more and become more centred in the positive things i want in my life and to help
me find the peace within myself.
My Angels come to me in some strange and unrealised ways, and when I become lost in the outside things that I can't
control no matter how hard I try is when I close down to the messages and healing they can bring.
I don't know how or when they gave this healing to me, all I know is that deep within I asked for thier help and I woke
this morning back to my optimistic and positive self.
I was downstairs talking to my nieghbour and my son opened his big Christmas present while his siter stood there and
watched. Then she came downstairs for the third time to sticky beak on our conversation and my son pulled the whols Christmas
tree down trying to get another present. I'm not losing my temper because I refuse to let them get me in a bad mood that wil
carry over for the whole day.
I just have to keep focused on what I want accomplish today, I need to get the kids to the Y.M.C.A. for the day so
they don't get bored, and there is a lot of cleaning to be done in the house. With all the things I've had on and the depression
I have been going through things have got quite unorganized and I need to rectify that especially with 6 weeks of holidays
ahead of us. I don't want to be wieghed down with cleaning the whole time cause I have a mission to enjoy as much of the
holidays as I can.
Well i need to sign off for a while now so I can get the kids lunches ready and walk them up to the outside school
care centre and get back here and get stuck into things.
Blessed Be!
Well i didn't get a hell of a lot of cleaning done, but downstairs in the lounge in kitchen are clean. I ended up at
Julie's after walking for an hour to take the kids to the vacation care. We went to the shops and then hung out at her place
and Melissa had a swim in thier pool until the storm hit. Then we went and picked the kids up this arvo and Julie drove us
home at about 4.45pm. So I had a fairly relaxing and calming day, so that was really good and I didn't evn let Centrelink
get to at all when I went to see them so the day was a success in my eyes. So I'm still feeling very good and I am going to
keep it that way.
We have to get an early night tonight because we havew another Christmas party early tomorrow morning and Julie will
be here at 9am to pick us up so a good sleep is in order.
Have a good day everyone and all.
14th December 2004
Well Good morning everybody. I didn't exactly get up when I was supposed but 7.30am is stil workable. I am feeling very
content this morning I have put my mind into having fun at the end of year celebration and enjoying every part of life from
here on in. Also I am watching 'Bewitched' and it is hilarious and I really did forget how funny the show could be. I am
only surrounding myself with positive and happy things, people and everything is going to be just fine from now on in. I
am not going to let tantrums and crying ruin my good feelings, the kids have held it over me for to long and I am going to
keep consistant and not give in.
So many times I allow them to get it over me and that makes things harder for myself. I need to set the rules and
stick to the consequences that go when they don't follow the rules. I know it will take time to get things into the normal
and for them to know that I am serious and that things work so much better when they just do as they are told. That they
will be allowed more priveledges when I dont have to be on thier backs all the time things are so much more peaceful and we
can have so much more fun.
I am at the begining of a new stage in my life, I am not allowing anger to rule my life anymore, well Julie is here
and it is time for me to go.
Well the party was hot, sweaty, full of food and they had a reptile show. They had snakes, lizards, turtles and gliders
but I sat on the other side of the table so I was as far away as I could possibly be. I enjoyed being out of the house for
just a couple of hours, and I realised my kids are better behaved than some others and that I am doing something right because
they don't run a complete riot like others.
Joel is really tired and getting very irratable but I am not letting it get to me, but my teenager is swearing at me
and raising her voice and yelling at me all the time. So she is now in her room after ranting and raving about her not being
a princess. She thinks she has every right to talk to me any way she wants and not listen to a word I say and carry on like
a spoilt brat.
Having this page allows me to have an outlet for all this stuff that is running round my head. I don't let it all get
to me and build up inside until I explode and land in depression, and thats why I feel so good because it's not all locked
up inside.
Signing off for today cause the kids are getting bored stupid, hey it's the holidays.
15th December 2004
Well good morning all. I've woken up before all the kids again this morning and I am feeling rather chiper for this time
of the morning, 6.15am. Which is good because I have to do a few things this morning like take the kids to vacation care,
and then go and get the new male guinea pigs that we ordered, pick up a pool repair kit and the get some shopping done food
wise. Then ther is also the chance Cabgae tree will call up for me to come in to deal with the present wrapping and getting
and the food ordering and stuf to be done for Christmas party on Friday.
But I am fine with doing all that because it is something that I want to do to help others that may not be as fortunate
as myself to be open to thier Angels and pull themselves back up.
I've been thinking it is quite strange that last week when I was feeling quite down and out of sorts and wasn't handling
things the best I felt as if no one was there before it got to breaking point. Now this week when I am feeling great and
have gotten through the bad part now people are worried and checking up on me like thier is no tomorow. I know when I was
at that breaking point R( won't name names without permission) was there and helped me out so I didn't completely go nuts
on Friday. She was a great help and I am very grateful for that, and Julie is always there for me and I feel the Angels guided
them to me and R helped me more than I can ever thank her for.
Just now I feel like I am under a microscope form everyone and being penalised for asking for help before I got to
far. Because now everyone is checking up on me and I feel as If that is not right. Don't get me wrong I am definately not
letting this get me down, and it is not affecting my feeling great about everything and back in control. They are thoughts
that would usually let get me down and paranoid and depressed but they aren't getting to me that way, because I am in a new
stage of my life.
And I have new ways of seeing and dealing with these thoughts and they help me see what parts of my thoughts need healing
and reprocessing. Also I now know it is quite normal and alright to have these feelings but that I am just reacting and dealing
with them in a different and positive way.
I know I one the right track because I know how I usually deal with these things and that it was not the right way
and how I look at them now is the right and more positive and constuctive manner. I have come to understand that those things
that I have no control over are things I should never stress over and that my Angels are there and things will work out the
way they are supposed to. That no matter how hard I push or pull if they are out my control then the Angels will put things
as they should be. That I can only concern myself with the things I have control over and that if I only react and think
of them in a positive and healing way then nothing can push me over the edge.
Also I accept that there are days when I will be feeling sad and upset about Cullen passing and that that is alright
and perfectly normal. That I need to allow my self to have these feeling and not try to bury them deep inside which I have
been doing. Because burying those feelings will only build and lead to depression and then all other areas of my life will
be effected and that is what I have been doing. Now I am no longer allowing myself to do that, and they are normal feelings
to be let out which I wasn't doing.
It is a little strange to even me at the moment how this awakenings or epiphany's (what ever you like to call them)
came to me all of a sudden, or even night as I sort of see it, once I sort of hit that rock bottom. But they did come to
me and mine is not to ask why, how or even when but they did come and I feel my life is the better for it.
Okay now that urge to explain what is going on with me is done, now to other matters at hand.
I realy feel quite extraordinary this morning, such positive feelings about everything and how I am seeing life at the
moment as I explained above and I am feeling alert and reay to take on the day. But I definately love this feeling even though
it is hard to put into words most of the time. I rang around all afternoon yesterday to try and get a Penny Turtle for Joel
for Christmas, but I never realised how expensive $100 for a thing the size of a fifty cent piece so now I'l think of something
else, maybe something Buzz lightyear, maybe we'll get the turtle in the future when we are more financial.
You know I do this pastlive tapes ever night when I go to bed but I have be always falling asleep during the relaxation
or descending part of the exercise you have to do to go to my past lives. And up until this morning I was sure it was doing
nothing to help me, but now I am starting to think maybe it is but that I am not remembering consciously but that it has given
me some of the knowledge that my brain is using to give me this new way of seeing,thinking and doing things. It could be
that I am recieving this insight that I am using in my new lease on life, and that it really does work. just because i don't
remember my past life stuff doesn't mean it isn't happening, maybe the stuff is too powerful for me to process in my waking
mind but is there to be accessed when my unconscious feels it is time.
I hope I am not boring anyone to death but this journal realy is more for me and realy the likelyhood of many people
reading this is not high.
But hey I am feeling great and if nobody else reads this it will not affect me in any way, yes I may be dribbling or
raving but who cares I feel good and thats all that matters. Well the kids are up and Caitlin is in the shower to get ready
for vacation care and Joel is watching Lilo and Stitch waiting for his shower.
Everyone seems to waking up in a good mood, yes they obviously dont feel any stress about because I am calm and feeling
great. But that wont last all day for them because kids wil be kids and I will deal with everything that comes up and not
see it as a reflection of me they are just being kids and are not doing it to annoy me and they are still getting use to the
limits I am setting and dealing with.
I am going to continue to be consistant and not let them get away with things I say shouldn't be done, actually thats
not the way it seems but they have to know the boundries. Without boundries kids will just run wild and even if they think
it is unfair or that I am being to hard on them then I will just have to deal with it and keep going and not give in. For
the unreasonable thoughts that they may go tell the department that they don't want to be here or that they are being mistreated.
I think that has been the big problem that I in a way have been letting them in a way blackmail me with these illogical thoughts
I have with that. When I let that thought rule how I set the boundries it just doesn't work, when they know if they just
push hard enough that I give in then the boundries and rules just don't happen and I only have myself to blame. They don'tike
the fact that I am following through with the consequences to thier behaviour but it needs to be done so that any stress or
behaviour can be removed from this family.
Yes I know it will be hard and won't happen over night but I long as I am consistant with following through then it
will happen eventually. Plus Melissa is going through some of the normal teenage rebelion stuff that is all new to me and
I have to learn to deal with those things as they come up.
Okay time to get on with the day. Have a great day anyone who happens to come by and read me.
Wel the day is finally over not that it was a bad one but it was a long one. Before leaving to take the kids to vacation
care I rang the housing mob to see if they needed me today to help with the Christmas party and they said they had enough
to help for the day already and that I should just go shopping. So I caught a taxi to drop the kids off then to the shopping
centre which cost me $20 and just as I walked into Bi-lo the phone rang and they needed me to come in and then I got a cab
home which was another $10. So then they picked Melissa and myself up and we went and wrapped about 70 presents for the party,
and we finished that about 1.45pm. Then we went to the shopping centre and walked around to try and find a friend a mobile
phone she liked. Then I went shopping and got the groceries and the 2 guinea pigs and the lady at the pet shop gave Melissa
a kitten for free for Christmas. Then at 4.45pm we went and got a cab and then to pick the kids up and home by 5.30pm. Then
I payed the frige guy and the video people, got the kids dinner, rang my mum and settled the kids down to go to sleep. Caitlin
went to sleep at about 8pm but Joel didn't fall off to sleep until about 9.15pm maybe a bit later. So when he was properly
to sleep I got on here to update my entry for today. I had some of my guarana to give me a bit of energy because I want to
fold the clothes in my room done tonight before I get some shut eye.
I have another big day tomorrow, I have the interview at the housing place that I am getting $40 for which comes in
handy. Then Julie is supposed to be bringing her daughter over to play with the kids and then I want to have another early
night for the Christmas party on Friday.
I am feeling really good about feeling really good, I have not felt this content in such a very long time. I just want
to get stuck into things, I want to try and get as much of my web sites done tonight as I can, I am just inthat sort of mood.
So I am going to sign off for the day and do some stuff on my other side.
Blessed Be! and have a great night.
16th December 2004
Well it's been a huge day and I am completely worn out and could drop of to sleep at the drop of a hat. We left about 8.30am
this morning to go and do this interview thing and that lasted till just after lunch time. Then came and organized the cleaning
stuff and then Julie came around with her daughter. They stayed until about 4.40pm then we went to the shop to get a collar
for the kitten, and then the kids got into thier jobs and I started to prepare dinner. Mind you it took Caitlin 1 and 1/2
hours to eat her dinner, she still wasn't finished at 8pm and she had to go to bed.
We have a big day ahead of us tomorrow and we have to be ready and left for the Christmas party at 8am, and then we
have to set up for the party and then we are going all day until about 4.30pm. I tell you when I get home tomorrow night
I will most likely be in bed very early cause it has been a very week and I am looking forward to having the next week free
of party's.
I never thought I would see the day when I would be so worn out and so busy, but it feels good at the same time to
not be home and getting bored out of my brain. I am going to lay down with Joel soon so that he is not grumpy and tired at
the party tomorrow.
I am watching a real funny movie called "Stuck on you." It is good for the soul to laugh and feel joy even
if it is just over a movie. Laughing is also helping keep me awake long enough to get a few things done.
I tried a new recipe tonight, "Teryaki honey Beef Salad" with Hokkie noodles and boy was it nice and it was
extremely filling as well, even Melissa couldn't even finish her dinner. That knocked me off my feet she never leaves any
of her food and usually wants more and whinges that she is stil hungry, wonders will never cease. She said it was because
the noodles were too thick and made her feel sick, but i think it was just an excuse.
My eyes are so heavy but I want the kids to all be asleep so I get my me time before I crash for the night. Plus my
fav show is on at 9.30pm so I have to make it til then, even though I am getting a bit of a headache from being tired but
I will survive.
I am feeling great in spirits, tired or not I still feel good about everything, I am still having trouble trying to
find enough space to put all the food I got yesterday and it is really annoying. Ros is trying to find me a pantry cupboard
since my kitchen is so damn tiny for the size of the house, but we'll get it worked out.
I am finally making head way with getting the house back in order, but I will have to find a couple more cupboards
for our clothes and junk to fit away nicely so we all have enough room. I don't expect to get everything done over night
it will take time we aren't miracle workers.
Well I am going to break for a while and try and settle Joel off to sleep cause it is way past his bed time and of
course we have the early start in the morning, have fun all.
17th December 2004
Well Good morning it's 5.55am and I have already feed the fish, chickens and hermit crabs and I feel good. We were all in
bed at 10.00pm last night a few complaints were heard but there was no arguing about it, because we have an early morning.
Okay that is Melissa up and trying to wake up to go finish cleaning the patio undercover area so that I can hose it down
so that it is clean before Ros comes to pick us up for the party. Shortly I will sort out what clothes we are wearing today,
cause I really don't have a clue at the moment since we haven't done the clothes yet which will be done this arvo. I am surprised
that I am feeling so awake and so chipper at this early hour of the morning and it is great to feel that way.
Actually right now I think I should go and check the clothes on the line and see if there is anything out there that
I want to wear. Okay there was only a couple of tops out there so now I just have to find something to wear on the bottom
halves.
What a show to wake up "Queen Latifah." with Whoopi Goldberg, they are hell funny and I feel it's good to
wake up with a laugh. It helps put me in the best of moods especially when I wake up feeling great in the first place. Okay
"Sabrina" is on know and Joel is awake and laying down on the floor quietly watching television. I love laughing
I guess everyone does so there is nothing strange about that.
Well I had better go and get the bottom half of our clothes for today because even though we are not due to leave until
8am but Ros always comes early and the cleaning won't get done until we get home because there isn't a little time to get
raedy.
Well the hosing was is so much harder than it usualy is because there is so much dirt piled there from ther rain that
is blocking the drain part of the drive wayarea so it's full of water. So I am going to let it drain a bit while I get Joel
dressed and ready to go and my stuff as well.
Okay that is the undercover are hosed and clean. I asked Caitlin to clean to pick up some broken toys at the side
of the house, and she started the back, then I showed her were she was meant to be. Then she came in bawling her eyes out
cause there was a medium sized snail on a toy truck, so I went out and it was already crawling away, but stil she kept crying
about it. So now she has lost some priveleges, cause I am sick of her crying like she is being beat up and it is over something
so sily as that or being told to do her job or not to do something I dont like.
Well the party is over and we are home and I am so glad it is over cause I am completely stuffed, plus some real selfish
people put me in a real upset mood, not in general though. Let me explain, We got there at 8am and statred making sure that
everything was in order, and everything went really well until present time with Santa. First off the Santa that we hired
got sent to jail and couldn't do it so we had to find someone else. Then we got to the end of the presents and there were
kids there without presents and ones that didn't show. So then we had to run around like mad idiots remembering what were
in the presents that were wrapped for the ones who didn't show. Then we had to get the names of the ones who missed out and
their ages so we could give them presents. People who said they weren't bringing any kids did and others brought people who
were staying with them and ones who just showed up. Then my smokes with money in the packet and my raffle tickets that I
put down during the present debarkle. That I could deal with cause that was my own fault but then when we went to pack up
all the mess and rubbish, we got all our kids to get the presents together and found that someone had stolen all of Joel's
Christmas Presents. That was the thing that pissed me off completely, these people were given free food, drinks, lollies
and presents for the kids and they didn't have to do anything and someone stole my sons present. There are some very selfish
and ungrateful assholes out there and they ruined the day for Joel and that pissed me off entirely more than words can say.
But on the other side the kids had a ball and got to pig out, have their faces painted, drink themselves stupid and
they got to see santa and get presents. Joel will fall asleep early tonight because he's been up since 6am and on the go
ful on the entire day and he is already tired. Oh and I got a present from Cabbage tree as a thanks for helping with organising
the cent auction and helping with the organisation of the party and fundraising for it, I got a box of Ferrero Rocher 30 pack
and they are yummy and rich and chocoliscious.
But I am completely worn out we have ben full on busy the entire week so I am glad it is all over for this year.
Not that I didn't enjoy doing it and I was glad to help Cabbage tree out because they have been great to me while I've ben
in the house and have understood when I've been having a bad time and they have been great. Also I get a good feeling from
helping others out it makes me feel like I am giving back to the community and the universe.
Also I got the chance to catch up with the friends I made Jo and Maur who helped me out with the cent auction . Back
soon have to ring Julie.
Rang Julie had a little chat but she had just put dinner on so shes ringing back later. joel ate so much junk and
red rooster at the party that he is not hungry and thats okay because they were eating until 3pm so it is understandable that
he is not in the mood for eating anymore. He is probably choc a block with food and I lost count after drink number 6 so I
am not going to force him to eat anymore cause I don't want him to get sick.
Me on the other hand it was way to hot and I was way to busy to eat much but I did drink a lot of soft drink and I have
had 7 ferrero rocher chocs and they are very rich so I am just having a drumstick.
Even though some thoughtless selfish people tried to ruin the day for me I didn't let them spoil my Christmas spirit
or ruin my mood on an altogether mood. In general I am still feeling in a great mood though I am a little tired but if I
wasn't tired I would think something was wrong with me.(haha).
Hopefully Joel and Caitlin will go to bed on time at 7.30pm and then Melissa and I are going to sit down and watch "Gothika."
We have been waiting a couple of months to see it and we can only watch it at the night time because Caitlin and Joel would
get way to scared and we wouldn't get to enjoy it. Plus I want the kids to go to bed on time so I can unwind and relax after
this hectic week, it will be nice to just lay there no kids argueing or running around. No noise and just enjoy the peace
and quiet and watch a movie that I have been wanting to see.
Lately the videos I have been getting lately haven't been ones I have really been waiting to see and knowing that I
will be totally entralled and glued to the screen. Don't get me wrong the other ones lately have been ones I wanted to see
but not as much as "Gothika," or waited as long for. Joel is laying on the floor quietly watching "Mickey
Magical Christmas" he is so tired that he is having trouble keeping his eyes open.
I feel a little that way but there is no way I am falling asleep until I've had some time to relax and watch my movie.
Ah it really is the season to be jolly and enjoy those friends that you care about, and it really isn't about the presents
and that sort of commercial stuff.
You know what it is strange, it took for me not to have a lot of money for presents and that sort of stuff to really
see what Christmas is all about. I am going to sign of for a little while again to start getting Joel ready for bed and sleep
cause he needs a calm done period for a bit where he lays down with me and calms down. So I will see you a little later cause
I feel like discussing my views on my religious path of Wicca on the essays page, so if you wish to go ahead and see my opinions
please feel free and if you have any comments feel free to send me an email on my contact page.
Click here to read my views on my religious path.
Well I wrote about my religious path on the essay page not that it really is an essay but it is about something that is
a big part of my life.
It only took Joel 20 minutes for Joel to go off to sleep, I knew he was really tired after his big day but I didn't
think he would go to sleep that quick though.
I am feeling in high spirits tonight partly cause of relief and partly because of the joy of the holidays and partly
because of my new lease on life that I have found lately. I believe everything comes together at the right time if you just
allow yourself to be open and realise when messages are coming your way.
I know if you read my early journal entries you would have seen how messed up I seemed but that was because I had closed
myself off. Closed to my Angels, closed to their messages and to any healing that was available to me and it took those testing
things to see that I was closed to it all and that I just had to let go and be open. Things work in strange ways and it is
not to me to question how these things work or come about. It is to accept and be grateful for what I do have because there
are plenty of people that have it worse off than me in this world.
I just have to keep reminding myself how well off I am in the long run, and the more positive energy I put into the
world and into helping people out there that are worse off than me.
I dont mean to get too deep but I am so grateful for how much I do have that I need to let people know that is if anyone
even reads it but if they don't it doesn't really matter, because this journal is mainly for me and to allow me to express
my gratefulness and to allow me to let go of what I usually bottle up.
It gives me a place to express myself without fear of judgement in any way because this is a web site and not somewhere
where people see me face to face. If anyone reads this even if they do send un-polite e-mails or comments because I can disassociate
myself from them because they are anonymous to me. Also they are not family or friends so it can't touch me personally.
Yet if this was only a year ago I would be emotional about any negative stuff that I recieved because emotional i had
not been at the stage of being disassociated from other peoples negative talk. I would have been devasted probably and taken
it personally not that it was just thier opinion and that it is their problem and their hang up and nothing to do with me
personally.
It even shocks me to realize how far I have come over the last year even with everything I have gone through and I
have come out much stronger in the end.
Just reading what I just wrote shows me how much stronger I have become and I am grateful to my Angels and the universe
and the Goddesses for that with my whole entire heart.
Well it's getting close to the end of this movie "Cold anor Creek" and it is a dozey thriller to set the
mood for "Gothika." being scary and chilled to the bone. Now is my time to relax and enjoy my evening of quiet and
peace, and get wrapped up in the movies and try and work out what is going on in them and what the ending might be.
So I am going to sign of until tomorrow and enjoy myself, so everyone have a good night and Blessed Be! to all and
to all a good night.
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